I would be willing to sit down and try to talk it over some day when I'm safely employed elsewhere and my feelings about it are not so acute.
With regard to leaving my safe job and venturing out into the great unknown job market, I am now 75% excited and 25% scared. There are no guarantees in life. However, if I can leave a good job at a fairly benign workplace, I can always leave any bad workplace I encounter. I am as free as I am willing to be.
I am very tired after dealing with all of these feelings all week long, as well as the people who inspire them. I'm also premenstrual, which certainly doesn't help.
Just three more weeks and this part will be done, and I can move forward into my new life. However it turns out, at least I was brave enough to take that step and try to make changes. That's progress, for me.