excitedI wouldn't even mind if the focus were on the spiritual aspects of Christmas. I don't begrudge anyone their holy day observances, after all. I am happy to hear about other holy days than my own, anytime. I'm just disgusted at the commercial trappings that surround this season, when what I would prefer during winter is a peaceful, contemplative atmosphere.
I can only make my own environment a commercial free zone where peace reigns and shut the noise and frenzy outside.
I continue to have dreams about my son. Each time he has made a decision to speak to me again. I am still puzzled about why I am dreaming such dreams right now, after I had already resigned myself to his never speaking to me again. It's really interesting. I'm not sure what it means, but when I wake up it's like I really have spent time with him. I guess that's a blessing in and of itself.
My birthday is coming soon and I am wondering what I want to do to celebrate. I've been so preoccupied about work that I am only now thinking about it.
Meanwhile I am starting to plan my body image classes and I realize I need to upgrade my wardrobe with a few nice outfits. I normally spend very little on clothes because I am too busy buying books, but I can't do body image classes in blue jeans and a t-shirt now, can I? I also need a good hair cut, as I've been putting that off. My old hairdresser quit to have a baby, and I kept putting off finding a new one. The split ends have taken over and I have to be brave and just try someone and see how it goes.
After the wardrobe upgrade and a new hair style maybe I'll look like I go with my Miata! Actually I think getting the Miata started me off on this self-improvement trend. I basically was telling myself I deserved better...and it's spreading into other areas of my life.
Here's to positive change!
