On the bright side when they finally send me a check including some retroactive benefits I'll be able to pay some people back. I'll be able to provide for some of my unmet medical needs without feeling like a drain on my husband. He never says that I am, he's been incredibly generous and good about having our sole support land on his shoulders, but I feel it keenly. It will take anywhere from a month to several weeks before any funds arrive. I will be able to get a chair that doesn't cut into my thighs and supports my back. I will get some help cleaning the house (it embarrasses me that I can't do it all myself). Every month won't be a struggle.
Trying to remind myself that I paid into this with my taxes. (FICA I love you now.)