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19 August 2009 @ 03:02 pm
Memoir Entries  
ETA 2012: Asked today where to start reading, good point since I have added to this entry organically. Anyone wanting a linear experience I would advise to start with the No Longer Quivering entries ( http://nolongerquivering.com/stories/tapati/ )where I syndicated my story and polished it up a bit. I haven't caught up on NLQ to where I am in the story here, so from that point skip on down this entry to Childbirth Led to More Violence (with some overlap) and continue on down through the Homeless Odyssey to What Is And Should Never Be. I have taken quite a break (this material is pretty heavy to write for obvious reasons and I spent some time dealing with serious chronic pain in 2010 and early 2011, leaving me a little shell-shocked) and I'm just getting back to it now (Mar 2012).

For those of you who are following the link from No Longer Quivering and are curious about other biographical entries, here they are, although I'm not putting all my memoir writing online for obvious reasons.

Added August 2010: Of Truth And Lies

Notes From The Earthquake Zone: The Loma Prieta Quake

Secondary Effects of the Earthquake

What Is And Should Never Be

Smiling Faces


Nov 2010: Kung Fu Fighting


Pre-Hare Krishna involvement:

Scents From My Childhood


(I have more of the above offline.)

Guest blog posts for No Longer Quivering:

Patriarchy Across cultures Scroll down a bit to find the full list.

The NLQ series overlaps some of the rough drafts I've linked to below. There are also a few posts that cover the time before I met Mahasraya. Here are some:

Living In The Material World

Summer of Transcendental Love

All Things Must Pass

Over The Rainbow

Now there's some crossover with what I've written below. The version for NLQ is a bit more polished and of course is slanted for the audience, meaning there is more emphasis on the movement and on the position of women than I had intended to include. It played a role but I didn't want it to take center stage. These also have pictures, unlike most of my LJ posts.

Magic Man

I Never Loved A Man

I Will Lay Me Down

What It's Like To Sing The Blues

When The Levee Breaks

Hard Day's Night

Family Affair


Cat's In The Cradle

Smiling Faces

Kung Fu Fighting


Meeting and marrying Mahasraya (contains some details left out of the NLQ version):

Meeting

Falling In Love

Pregnant In a Laundry Room

I backtrack a bit and explain our initiation, on NLQ:

A Lifetime Commitment: Initiation

Some of the material below I am just now getting to on NLQ, some I haven't posted there yet, especially the homeless odyssey portion of the story. (As of 8-2010)

Childbirth Led To More Violence

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

I Can't Live Without You!

Separation

The Odyssey Part 1

The Odyssey Part 2

Adventures In Cultivation:Odyssey Part 2 interlude

Odyssey Part 3

Two Days In The Life, Odyssey Part 3 interlude

After The Odyssey

NEW as of Aug 2010: What Is And Should Never Be

Friends Locked: From the Other Woman (letter)

Mother of Mercy (stand alone piece)

These next two were some of the earliest writings I did regarding my abusive marriage and I reprinted them in my online magazine, Uppity Women. I just want to add that Maxine, mentioned in the second piece, passed away in 2001 and she is sorely missed.

Why Don't You Just Leave That Jerk? (essay published in 1994 La Gazette in Santa Cruz)

So You Left The Jerk. Now What? (follow up essay also published 1994)

Other biographical entries (just to help me keep track):

Joy In Unlikely Places: My son's head injury

Spanish Guy (Just before I got together with Mahasraya)

Comfort From Above (also connected to son's head injury)

I'm Alive (2001 heart surgery from paper diary)

Trials of the Heart (Salon piece)

Almost: Meeting Dave (my current husband)

Appointment With Death

Letter From A Christian

Bonnie and Virginia (my mom and her sister)

Stand alone posts at NLQ:

From Generation to Generation

Vegetarian For God

No Turning Back

I Have Won (A poem)

Connecting The Dots: Patriarchy Across Cultures A comparison of life in the Hare Krishna movement with other authoritarian, patriarchal religious movements such as Quiverfull and FLDS. It also summarizes my time with ISKCON and my first marriage.

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W. Lotus: Peacefulwlotus on August 20th, 2009 02:09 am (UTC)
I have read up to "Mother of Mercy", and my head is spinning! You have been through a lot. It is a testimony of your strength that you have survived.

Thank you for being so willing to share your story.
Tapatitapati on August 20th, 2009 10:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the encouragement!

I didn't think I would survive it while it was happening and it's with some surprise that I look back and realize that I did. There must be a reason!

I would like to think that I lived through that so others don't have to. I hope that other women will read it and know they don't have to put up with such treatment and maybe leave a little sooner than I did.
3treekisser: Flower Pentagram3treekisser on August 20th, 2009 10:09 am (UTC)
Thanks for posting this, Tapati. I read the first No Longer Quivering post (the patriarchy one) but haven't had the time to read the others. Glad all the links are here, you always give a lot of food for thought!
Tapatitapati on August 20th, 2009 10:48 pm (UTC)
You're welcome. I realized some people were coming here for the first time based on those posts at NLQ and that I should offer them a guide. Plus it helps me keep it all straight.
lisbetaidenraine on April 25th, 2010 03:55 am (UTC)
Yes, I also read a whole bunch of this and just found it so compelling and so sad... and dramatic too. I remember going to a lot of "Krishna punk" shows in the 90s- there was a big hardcore/punk scene in Philadelphia surrounding the Hare Krishna movement. I think I still own some of those albums- Shelter, 108:
http://www.krishnacore.com/contents.html

I just had no idea what it was about though.
Tapatitapati on April 29th, 2010 09:55 pm (UTC)
I've heard about the punk Krsna scene. They must have thought it was great PR. :)